7th grade summer vacation
would be the summer I would never forget. My cousins had come from New York and
we were set to travel to China to visit family. I hadn't been to Fujian since I
was two years old, and I had never had the opportunity to learn about my
origins, so I was especially enthusiastic to go on this trip with my entire
family at such a significant age. However, as we begun eagerly planning our
days together, we received news; my father had cancer. We knew my father had
been nauseous, but had assumed that he only had the flu. We rushed to the
hospital and it was there that we learned that my father had blood cancer:
Leukemia. Needless to say, we immediately canceled our trip.
I had never seen my dad undergo such agonizing
pain. I had always revered my father as the commanding, tenacious head of our
family. However, now, seeing him colorless and fragile in the hospital bed, I
felt powerless and resentful. As I walked away from the hospital, I began to
punch the walls. Suddenly, I became cognizant of tears that were raining down
my cheeks- was I being selfish? I realized that I needed to be resilient and
courageous for my father. I pulled myself together and rushed back into the
room where my dad was laying down. As I slowly approached the hospital bed, I
looked at him with a hopeful smile on my face.
However,
as the months passed, my father’s condition deteriorated. One day, my father’s
oncologist came to give us the results of the latest tests. He explained that
my father was in critical condition and that, without a blood transfusion, the
prognosis indicated he had at most one month to live. Astonishingly, as
devastated as we were, my father approached the situation with a newfound
faith. Once a religious skeptic, my father began to pray to God. He found peace
with his situation and focused on encouraging me and my siblings to aspire to
our dreams and to never reject a challenge. I could not understand how my
father so selflessly worried about us while he was in this condition. As I
watched him endure the pain with a smile, I realized that my father was still
fighting the cancer. Even though he understood what the doctors were saying, he
refused give up, and I decided that neither would I. I fought through the tears
and distress and pushed myself to enjoy the time I had left with my father, my
mentor.
After
weeks without positive development, the doctors discovered that my uncle had
the same blood type as my father, and there was a possibility of a successful
transfusion. My uncle came to the hospital and after waiting an excruciating
six days, the doctors told us that the operation was successful. I never felt
more elated than I did on the day that my father was finally released from the
hospital, over a year from that dreadful summer afternoon.
I realize now
that though I never had the opportunity to visit Fujian or explore my familial
history, I learned more about myself in that year than I ever could have in
China. I appreciate now that in life, we all experience challenging situations.
As I watched my dad suffer and face death with hope and positivity, I learned
that while we cannot control the outcomes of these circumstances, we do control
how we respond to them. I saw my father
struggle and I saw him recover, and through all of this I learned that I will
have to respond to profound confrontations of my own someday and I will do so
with the same maturity and responsibility that my father, demonstrated so that
I will be able pursue my dreams to the fullest, even when life around me may
seem bleakest.
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